I always knew I had a problem with alcohol, but everybody around me including my family we drink the same but my body doesn t tolerate it like the others.
Being drunk I broke bones I have lost friends and family, but I never had problems at work... I never drink på vardagar, only weekends, but doesn t matter... Now I m 32 years old and my body starts to burn less kalories, so what I drink during the weekends made me 20 kgs fatter, because I eat good and I train hard from monday to friday. But all goes to hell friday and saturday...I dont remember what I do and I cannot control it. I had anorexia some years ago and my obsession to be thin has been always powerful. And now, I need to loose those 20 kgs and I know my problem is the beer (I drink beer, 7 beer friday and 7 saturday). But I cannot stop it. I feel hopeless. I cannot imagine a summer day in the beach och grilla (BBQ) without a cold beer. Impossible. And I feel bored and depressed if I don t drink, but the day after drinking I want to suicide, in fact I tried it twice here in Sweden, and been in the psikiatrik but always said I have problems with alcohol... I don t know how to solve that.